Non-Ejaculation Practice For Men
After a conversation with a beautiful new friend last night I became aware of how important it is for me to share with the world my practice of non-ejaculation and the reasons I choose this practice. This practice started when I was a teenager. The desire to be the best lover for my partners and be able to provide as much pleasure that was available drove me to this discipline. I remember trying to delay my ejaculation as long as I could with lovers so they were able to experience the most pleasure in our lovemaking. I knew I needed to practice this outside partner engagement and began doing so during my self-pleasure practice as well. I never felt I had a problem with premature ejaculation and I realize in our culture it is something men struggle with. There are proven healthy techniques for ejaculation control which have potential for healing men that struggle with premature ejaculation.When I first found my sexuality at a young age, I loved the feeling of my ejaculation and like most young boys got attached to my ejaculation practice and the oxytocin hit that it gave me. Just like a drug addict gets hooked on the feeling the drug produces, I got hooked on the oxytocin hit. I think this is natural for young people, both men and women, as they begin to explore their sexuality from the basis of a purely biological standpoint. There is also a distinct separation between orgasm for women and for men. Women have the potential for a wonderful experience that can lead to orgasm after orgasm, and men, on the other hand typically have the one ejaculation orgasm and then are known for falling asleep. Of course not all women are multi-orgasmic and not all men fall asleep after orgasm, I just had to give a voice to the stories. As I grew older, I realized that my habits around my ejaculation practice were not serving myself and my relationships anymore. I couldn't "get it up" like I used to several times a day and wanted to experience something else in my sexual life.
As I grew up and out of my teenage years and my twenties, my relationships with lovers and my body changed. I started to notice what it was like to carry an erotic "buzz" or "charge" in my body by not ejaculating as regularly as I did when I was younger. In addition to the amazing energy I felt in my body, this practice was also full of discomfort and my own self created drama and I was not sure why. The only thing I can come up with is a purely biological explanation. As men, we are genetically programmed to spread our seed in order for the world to be populated with our first rate genes. Going against that biological drive and programming and holding my ejaculation brought up much resistance, emotion and discomfort. Lot's of internal dialogue telling me how different I was which had the potential of separating myself from connections and keep me in isolation. I was not going to allow my negative self talk to dictate my desires.
I had no idea what else was out there and what I did know was that I wanted to change my relationship to my sexuality so I can experience more pleasure. Then I had an "awakening" of sorts. I was at a workshop and experienced what it was like to be in a highly aroused state for an extended period of time and not ejaculate. During that time I experienced what it was like to have full body orgasms and not ejaculate. The feeling in my body was so incredibly pleasurable and exciting to experience and I wanted to learn and experience more. This began my journey into the realm of Joseph Kramer, The Body Electric, Sacred Intimacy, Tantra and Sexological Bodywork. I was hungry to learn all I could with the intention of bringing my fullest self into my relationships, into my life and ultimately into the world.
Over time, the relationship I have to my ejaculation practice continues to change and morph regularly. I have experimented with days/weeks of masturbation without ejaculation, days/weeks of partner engagement and partner sex without ejaculation and even up to 90 days of non-ejaculation. The 90 day practice was not in attempt to be celibate, I was sexually active with myself and my partner. At first I experienced LOTS of discomfort as my body tells me to do one thing that my mind is not in agreement with it. I still experience this dilemma while the discomfort has lessened over time being in this practice. What's different today is the discipline that I choose to engage in and practice in my life. When I am in the practice of non-ejaculation I experience a fullness of presence in my life that I've not experienced before. I am able to be highly present with people in my life in such a way that let's them know how much I care about and love them, a relentless non-distracted energy.
What I've also noticed is that when I choose to ejaculate after a period of non-ejaculation, I've experienced a significant decrease in my energy and presence for my life. I've been left feeling sad, depressed and with a lack of motivation. In order to be with the possibility of these feelings I decided to develop a ritual around the conscious decision to ejaculate in order to honor myself and the amazing gift I've been given to be in my body, this discipline and being able to make the choice.
My belief is that when men get into a non-ejaculatory practice they develop more of their ability to be with what is, getting less attached to taking a "right" position, they become less goal oriented, become more present in their bodies and develop a fullness of presence to be with themselves and their relationships. I've developed a passion to work with men develop this part of themselves through conscious work around sexuality which keeps me moving forward in my practice and my work with others.
-Isaiah
wakingeros@gmail.com
www.wakingeros.com
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